哭了

今天的心情超级超级的差
原本的心情就没什么好的
再加上发烧，头痛，感冒小毛病缠身后，
心情指数可说已跌入十八层地狱了.

好烦好烦...
很多心事，很多不甘，很多不满，很多很多...
脑袋里似乎没有一处是空的...
有点喘不过气...

很想好好的发泄
很想大喊大叫
可是在夜深里大喊大叫，
一定会被邻居投诉吧！！！
最终... 我还是大哭了一场... （果然是个爱哭鬼）
除了哭，我唯一可做的便是把一切坏心情丢到这里来
即使是没人来读或看，
只要把一切丢到着垃圾桶，心情就会好一些些...

无可否认的是
孤独，寂寞，无助，无奈
这些感觉都非常恐怖 = (

当我跌倒时，你会扶我一把吗？
还是你要我自己跌倒自己爬起来？

当我用真心对待你时，
你也会用真心地对待我吗？

其实，对你好 并不是要得到同样的回报
真心对待你，是我心甘情愿的...
只不过，当一个人经过多次的伤害后，
原本的观念也有偏差了...

有时候回想，原来自己是多么的愚蠢
曾经的被利用，
曾经的被受伤害，
曾经的被背叛，
曾经的被耍，
曾经的曾经.........

真心的付出换来痛苦的回报；
献出关心及善意则被人当成了恶意；
原来好的角色并不容易扮演....
究竟该做好人还是坏人呢？！
好像... 对你仁慈就是对自己残忍.....

真的... 真的... 不知下一步棋该怎么走...
突然有个想结束一切一切的念头
结束生命的念头.....

也许，你会觉得我太悲观了吧....
或许我就是那么的脆弱；
经不起大风大雨，大海大浪；
难道非得如此坚强及坚定不可吗？！
难道不可选择作温室里的小花吗？！

真的不想再坚强了
真的不想再付出了
真的不想再做好人了

也许
是时候扮演狠角色了吧！
该试下背叛别人
该辜负别人
该伤别人的心
该耍一耍别人
好让他们尝尝那些滋味....

bilibala了那么多....有重点吗？！好像没有哦！！ 哈哈：）这就是我咯！自己都搞不清楚状态....不过，哭后及丢进这些心情故事后，心情好了一些啦....希望你看透我要表达的意思...看不懂的话，就当作我在胡言乱语吧！！！

晚安咯：）

无意间看见了这个文章，如果你现在没事做的话，不妨耐心的读一读吧！！！ 一篇很长很长的文章哦：）

我觉得还真准的。。。
你认识的我（ 天蝎座的我 ）， 也是如文章所说的吗？！


天蝎座MM的真实面目http://love0.com/forum/472938.html

想着。。。想着。。。

夜深人静的这个夜晚
我迟迟无法入眠
躺上床 闭上眼
但却没有一点儿的睡意
只好面对着电脑银幕 听着音乐
渡过这漫漫长的黑夜

你会在宁静的夜晚做些什么呢？！
想必一定是有个好觉 作个美梦吧！
而我。。。而我却在。。。
想着远方的你
想着远方的他
想着童年时光
想着未来旅途
想着。。。想着。。。

想着想着。。。
脑海中也出现了许多的画面
有些很熟悉，有些很陌生；
有些无法再重来，有些无法再实现。

也许，只有这样的夜晚
我才会这样的想着这些吧！！！

我很无聊，是吧？！ 哈哈：）

12.07.2006

Hey, I'm back again... My working life started again yesterday as my boss was not around in Malaysia, another few more days to go then I can resign completely la..:) I'm kinda lazy to work after rest for one++ weeks...Basically, I have never rest enough, I went out everyday after the last day of working (30.6.06) , Friday. I went to cheung K , watch movie, shopping, yum cha with my friends...keep relaxing and enjoying...:) Unluckily i was sick since I was off from working...It's too bad la... It took one week for me to recover ^*+?*!blek:( yaya... dad is getting well after the operation too:)

It's kinda sad when talking about "leaving"...one of my friends was left on last friday and the other is going to leave by tomorrow morning to further their studies in Australia....俗语说得好，天底下真的没有不散的宴席啊！！！彼此都会有离开彼此的一天，没有谁能永永远远的陪着谁。。。All the best to them...祝你们前程似锦！！！

When thinking about leaving...only I realised tat I'm not a kid anymore... ( maybe it's too late for me to realise it ) I think it's time for me to think and plan for my future de... blink an eye, I was graduated from primary n 2ndary skool....few years later, i'll complete my studies....start my working life...get marry...get my own family.....and it comes the end of my life...wa.. it's too fast de :( sumtime, It's so scary when thinking about my future... but hor... sumtime I thinking not to marry in the future de...dunno how's my future de !?!? sigh...

*** in a sudden, i feel not to grow up anymore.... 突然，不想长大了***....sigh....

Are u going to further ur studies in overseas too??!!

## very bad mood tis few days after i found out sumthing from YOU. I knew I should not do tat anymore but I really cant stop myself from doing tat... I think wat can i say to u are "thank you" and "sorry".....“对不起，谢谢你！！！” ##

kla.. wanna sleep la hav to work tml de... night:)

是这样的吗？

~~ Thanks~~

Time flies....n it's July now....

Yesterday was the last day of my working day in the optical shop. My boss and colleague were so shocked of my sudden resignation as I break my promise... I was so sorry for the sudden resignation n I have to leave with my ineffable difficulties.... Maybe I'll regret in one day but I hope I hav made a right decision....

However, I was so happy n great to meet a boss and colleague like them. 3 of them taught me alot of things though the time we spent together is not tat much....

Boss, Alvin ( xiao ming ) and Aloy....
Thanks for teaching a clumsy girl so patiently
Thanks for everything....**sincerely**.....

yaya...thanks for the simple n sweet farewell party too.... I can felt it strongly... :) anyway, we'll meet soon ( Another 5 working days r waiting for me when boss is not around ).

Goodbye n take care to u all....

*** Heard a news yesterday night when I came back from work.... I was so shocked when Mum tell me that Dad is going for an operation next Wednesday...opps... What happened to my Dad health?! My parent told me tat's a small case operation n not to b too worry. Hope dad getting well soon....***