....HolidayS....

3rd semester has finally came to the end few days ago...monday, I skipped the boring optics class and planned to study ophthalmic but I cant managed to do so due to the laziness....and lastly I spent the whole day with the dog which brought back by my dad... Actually I dislike dog as I got the phobia since the day I bitten by a dog....The dog brought back by dad was born two months ago so he's very small in size, therefore I can still accept it.... my eldest brother named it as ah bui due to its fat body while dad named it as xiao hei and xiao bing bong due to its black spots....but I still not sure what's the exact name given to him...we just call him watever we like...;)

Straight away after the anatomy paper on Wednesday, 5 of us ( ken, kokhow, chiayen, koksoon and me) went to the nearby Neway while waiting the midnight to reach ... after singing K, we went to pasar malam and had our dinner....then we went for movie when everyone ( 9 of us ) was ready... I can't really remember how many times I get a shock when watching tat movie....I just know it's horrible @.@ after the movie, then it's the begining of our journey to Penang....

I've been to Penang few months ago with the other bunch of friends and I went there again this time....this time, I got the chance to be the driver and this is the second time I drove for a long way.... I and koksoon take turn to drive as I cant really drive for a long hours in the midnight.... on the other hand, sheeyong was so geng lo, sleep less on the day before we travelled but managed to drive all the way go and back from Penang.... Now only I realised the feeling of being a driver for a long journey...it's really tiring... unlike everytime... i was the one who sat at the back seat and enjoyed the moment of sleeping...

We took about 5++ hours to reach the Butterworth harbour and we went to Penang by ferry... then we booked the hotel and went for breakfast....the Penang food which I like the most is the hokkien har mee.... I ate it everytime I went there....the same too as this time, it's the first meal I took in Penang...miss it too right now :)

>>> 7.24am, 26.4.07--- waiting for ferry, we're so tired <<<>>> sunrise view from the ferry <<< >>> beaches in front of the Gurney Hotel <<<

after that, we went to Penang Hill...took pics there and rebut for the seat in the train too.... ^.^...then it's the time travelled back to Gurney Hotel after we had our lunch... we stayed in a suite consists of 2 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, a kitchen and a living room...The master bedroom has a nice sea view bathroom with jacuzzi....straight away after we reached the hotel, we had our rest time...and I was fell asleep while waiting for the turn to take a bath.... it's about 3pm when i awoken... then I continued to sleep again after I took a bath....it's really tiring and I spent most of the time on sleep... while others... I don't know what they did in the living room la...by the time around 5pm, I was awoken by my friends....and it's time travelled to the beach...... I was so blurred tat time and not feeling to go too... but lastly I drove to the beach too.... we played volleyball at the beach... saw the sunset scene... and exhausted lots of energy...

>>> Penang Hill <<<

>>> batu Feringghi <<<

>>> the sunset <<<

at the night, we never went for clubbing as what we had planned...but ends up with drinking beer in the hotel.... it's the 1st time we gathered and had drunk....haha...not drunk actually but it's so fun drinking beer and playing cards with guys....it's so funny when thinking back... leeyan- suddenly came out with the words bei bei you jiu jiu...;) me, chiayen and suehyan just look alike three tomatoes... our faces were so reddish and hot... while ken, kok soon and sheeyong look normal, very steady... and kok how never drank but hurt his hand when he tried to open those beers... so pity :(

>>>night view from the hotel <<<

The next morning, we went to Gek Loh Shi temple after we had asam laksa.....the asam laksa was not really good as what I tasted during last visit....as the stall was off that day so we cant managed to taste it...too bad....then it's time of sweating on the way walked to Gek Loh Shi temple....it's a long and tiring walk..+.+. then we went to Queensbay mall after the long walk and travelled back to KL around 4pm....and.... that's the end of the short and tiring trip....I've spent 12 hours for sleeping after I was back from the trip....but I still felt tired until now... don't know why...sigh...overall...the trip was tiring...sleep less... spent many... eat many...but it's a fun, great and memorable trip too ;) ... yayaya... it's so funny when watched back the video clip too.....hahahahhaha.....laughing nonstop..... ;)

>>> gek loh shi temple <<<

>>> Penang trip of year 2006 <<<

>>> Penang trip of year 2007 <<<

无言 T_T

睡不着... 几个小时前, 接到了一位朋友的来电. 这夜半三更的来电, 想必又是一个要向我倾诉心事的人了... 没错, 又是另一个听故事的时候了... 听过了他的心事, 我又不经意的想起了许多事而失眠了...

为什么爱情会如此复杂? 为什么爱情会让人如此累? 为什么爱情会让人留下超过一公升的眼泪? 为什么会在错的时间遇上对的人? 为什么对的时间遇上的却不是那个对的人? ..... 很多很多的问题突然都涌进了我的脑袋中，好心情也在刹那间消失了...

一对相爱的情侣, 其中一方因为某种原因提出了分手; 然而, 另一方却不能协妥另一方的要求......一个要结束那段情而另一个却要持续.... 朋友，你是否曾是那个提出分手的人? 提出分手那刹那, 你又有什么感觉呢? 试问, 什么原因会导致你要结束一段感情呢? 如果你不是提出分手的那位, 那你必也曾是那个被甩的人吧. 当你的另一半向你提出分手时, 你又会有何反应呢? 你会接受他所给于的原因吗? 提出分手又要有多大的勇气呢? 为何分手的人最终又是那个想要挽回的人呢? 如果要挽回, 那当初又何必提出分手呢? 难道只有在失去后才学会珍惜吗? 为什么当你拥有时却不好好珍惜呢?

其实, 有时候提出分手的人未必扮演着恨角色. 我们常读过许多感动人心的故事, 话说一对相爱的情侣在刹那间分手了, 其中一方为了另一方的着想而逼不得已只好一个人承受痛苦, 就算再怎么不愿意, 他都得忍心地结束那得来不易的恋情... 每一次这样的故事, 结局一定是述说着那个心中有苦衷的人患上了不治之症, 最终静悄悄地离开人间了... 为什么只有这样的剧情才能感动人心呢? 难道世上不能有美好的恋情吗? 为什么相爱的人不能在一起? 既然相爱, 为何又要一个人独自承受所有的痛苦呢? 为何相爱的人不可以一起努力, 一起面对所有的困难呢? 为何一定要放弃呢? 难道这样默默的付出才是那个伟大的人吗?

好端端的一对情侣, 其中一位在无端端的情况下提出分手... 我想他也是忍受了许多的痛苦, 一个人承担了没有人知道的苦衷, 用尽了一股强大的勇气才作下他自己也不想的决定, 说出了那一句"我们分手吧！" 他很爱她, 她也很爱他. 但他却在仔细的考虑后决定结束那段得来不易的恋情...一个移情别恋的人, 在提出分手时必定会设法给你许多的原因, 为的就是抛下那段情而再展开另一段新恋情. 但当一个心中藏有苦衷, 设法为自己找理由, 留着泪忍着痛的人... 他所需要的那份勇气及坚持, 又有谁能体会能明白呢? 我不知道他所谓的苦衷是否真的是个苦衷, 也许那也只是一个原因中的原因吧... 但他始终没把真正的原因告诉他的另一半... 他只希望她比他过得更好, 他之所以放弃那段情是因为他认为如果再持续, 未来的路上她会过得更痛苦......为什么有些人可以为将来的事下个定论呢? 没人晓得自己未来的路会是怎样, 但却会幻想着未来及许许多多的如果.... 但为何一定要有许许多多的如果呢? 为何在没有尝试的情况下, 就要放弃呢? 为什么要设法去想许许多多的如果呢? 为何不尝试, 你就否定了一切, 放弃了一切呢?

朋友, 当你在恋情上遇到瓶颈时, 你又会如何选择呢? 当一段恋情有了第三者... 当一段恋情不被人看好... 当一段近距离恋情演变成远距离恋情... 又或者... 当你爱上一个他不爱你的人... 当你恋上了朋友的情人... 当.................友情, 亲情及爱情, 你又会选择何情呢?!?!?

身边的朋友常常都会问自己要如何遗忘... 我想我也不例外吧. ...遗忘, 何谓遗忘??? 难道是失忆症?? 常听说, 爱上一个人只需要一分钟, 但要遗忘一个人却要用上一辈子的时间! 这一切是真的吗? 有的朋友问我, 要如何忘记一个自己爱的人... 要如何获得他/她的心... 要如何才能让自己爱的人也爱上自己... 同样的,也有朋友问我, 要如何让爱我的人对我死心... 此外, 也有的会说, 既然你爱他/她, 就让他/她得到他/她要的幸福吧... 爱他/她就是要看到他/她快快乐乐, 即使自己再怎么痛苦也无所谓...

说起遗忘, 我想起了不久前看过的一本书 <<听笨金鱼唱歌>>...书中这样写着:

[ 要忘记一个你深爱的人

或许 只能靠着时间 和 另一个爱你的人

也许 时间只能证明爱的深浅

也许 爱你的人只能默默地在你身边 听着 守着 存在着

也或许 最终 过了一段阴暗的无光 也无星子也无月的夜

天亮之后 海阔天空 我们都会幸福 ]

我可以问你吗

[要怎么样去忘掉一个你深爱的人]

感情的世界 在我的感觉里像迷宫

你爱上谁 你跟着谁 似户冥冥之中自有定数

两个人同样身陷在一个迷宫当中

手牵着手 往同一个方向 同一个目标迈进

没有走出迷宫没关系

只求一起身在迷宫里陪着对方

即使焦急 也心满意足

但 当他放开你的手 径自走去

迷宫中只剩下你孤单一个人

突然间你会方寸大乱

因为一同走过的路

都蒙上了厚厚的 重重的蒙雾

你无法回首来时路

眼前该往哪里去你也看不清楚

[让时间 让另一个爱你的人帮你忘记]

时间 只能证明爱的深浅

就像分手多年后再一次相见

你永远三十度C手的温度

你不变深邃眼眸里的晶坠

我就会再度记起当年

爱你的回忆 爱你的酸甜

时间 果然只能证明爱的深浅

所以 忘记你需要的不是时间

我并不晓得有多少人可以认同作者的看法, 但我却认为当中也有它的可用之处.... 也许, 遗忘并不是件可以用时间来衡量的....

想必大家都有自己的想法吧...我没有一个确定的答案, 也无法下定谁是谁非... 毕竟, 爱情真的是一堂最难最复杂的课...有时候, 我也向它投降了... 但我想说, 世上除了爱情以外... 其实, 四周还是有其他更值得我们去珍惜的人事物... 除了爱情, 你也有亲情及友情啊! 爱情只是人生中的一部分, 它并不是所有... 朋友,别太执著于爱情...为了一个不爱自己的人, 而这样的伤害自己是不值得的... 有时候, 学着去放手未必是件不好的事啊! 放手了, 你也许会得到更多啊! 你又何必那样死缠烂打... 甚至伤害自己呢?! 难道你不认为你的举动只会带给他更大的痛苦吗? 朋友, 不值得... 真的不值得... 你只有那仅仅一次的人生, 别为了一个他而牺牲上你的生命...好好地珍惜你的生命吧!!! 更何况, 在这世上并不是说, 谁是不能没有谁的... 除了你自己, 也没有谁可以永远陪着谁的... 朋友, 为自己而活吧!!! 在没有遇上他之前你能好好的;同样的,没有他的日子,你也一定能活得更好...

~祝福大家~

DecisioN MakinG

Life is full of decisions and sometimes it's hard to choose for the right one...you'll be in a dilemma when come across decision making...you can't figure out which should you choose and which is the best among the all... Once you make a choice then it'll be part of your life... I've came across many and many times of decision making...Each time, I told myself to think wisely and deeply as the choice I choosed may bring the effect in the future... However, I still make the wrong decision everytime... I used to blame myself for choosing the wrong path...Why not I choose the other choices rather than what I had choosed?! Why not I think of the choices once and once again?! That's me.......I know nothing is perfect, I know everything has passed and there's no way to regret, but I still felt guilty of it... Why can't I make a RIGHT decision?!

Few weeks ago, one of my bro asking me the decision making of his further studies after SPM.... he has no ideas on what to do and asking me for the opinions and also the reasons I choosed my course right now.... well, that's the question I hate the most to answer.... Frankly, being an optician isn't really my ambition and since young I hav never ever thought/dreamt to b an optician in the future... OPTICIAN, it isn't my dream... and until now I still not cleared of the reasons I choosed it... and I was kinda regretted for joining this course... however, the course is going to end by this year so there's no way for me to regret or changing into other course....therefore, what can I do now is just continue it, pass the papers (hopefully) and look for the job after I graduated... besides of that, my bro also asking me a question which always surrounded on my mind.... " jie, r u going to further your studies in overseas after this year? ".... yeah, that's the question...and I haven't make up my mind yet... I was so envy of those who can further his/her studies in overseas and each time, I hope I'm NOT the one sending friends off in KLIA and watching them take down the escalator heading towards the plane....I hope I'm the one on the plane!!! That's what I hoped for but can it be true in one day?! I don't know and it's most probably--- NOT!!!!

sigh...FUTURE... how will it be? is dat a bright future? or...??? As the time flies, I'm getting worried about my future... Who am I when I reached the age of 30,40 and 50?!?! What can I be in the future except working in an optical shop?!?! The more I think of those questions, the more I feel guilty and regret on what I had choosed....sigh....

what can I say here to my bro is... pls think wisely before you make any decision... dont follow what your friends choosed, that's your future and YOU'RE the only one who can decide it.... yea, the future is in your hands!!! And....don't follow my step, no more regret... no more turning back when it's too late.... - all the best to you... ^^ and me too.....

HeadachE

The test is coming and I just managed to start the revision few days ago...but, I cant really understand on those topics which had been taught by Lau. It's so confusing and complicated...I read through the notes and questions once and once again...but it didn't work...He always asks everyone of us read the text book more than ten times, after the ten times then you can able to understand... that's the one I hate the most when he talked about!!!!! I dont think he's teaching but crapping... cakap sendiri syok sendiri saja...I think most of us can't get into mind what had been taught by him throughout this sem...Frankly, I know nothing everytime after I attended the lesson...I go into the class with nothing and the same too when I left the class, my brain was totally blank with the knowledge of optics...OMG....Help!!! How can I manage to sit for the coming final exam?! I really worried about that...:(

The revision was not going that smoothly, it's really messy and causing lot of problems.... my brains was totally filled up with lot of question marks.... ???? how? ?why?? what??? sigh...Attending the lecture seems useless (except for the attendance), at last we got to depend on our own too...aiya...trying to work hard and study smart....

erm... anything to add before I end this post??? er... yaya, heard of a GOOD news from one of my friend few more minutes ago... Lastly she got what she wants in her life... I think that's the day which she's waiting for.... I hope I can be what as she in one day too... :)

yeah ALCY, congratulations!!! ^^

不眠的星期一夜晚

一星期七天
我最不喜欢的就是星期一
但最喜欢的也是星期一 的夜晚
星期一漫长的课程总把我搞得疲惫
因此每逢星期一的夜晚 我总是特别容易入睡
然而 这个夜晚 我失眠了
我很疲惫 但我却至今都无法入眠

心情很烦很乱很糟
真的真的很想找个人听我说话
真的真的很想痛快的大哭一场

其实我已长篇大论了一张稿
但我还是无法把它放在这儿
虽然很想很想化心情为文字
但是我还是心有余而力不足
我始终害怕让人看透我的心

其实
当初开始这部落格的目的都是为了要一起分享喜悦 然后再把悲伤抛到这儿来
但当越来越多人会到这儿来时 我就开始迟疑 开始怀疑
我是否真的要把所有的真心话都抛到这儿呢 我真的不懂
说出真心话让大家知道 那我就没有了隐私
不说出心底话 我那闷闷的心又该向哪抛去呢
矛盾 真的真的很矛盾

有时候 我真的真得很羡慕那些大胆说出真心话的人
虽然我不喜欢隐藏的感觉 但我又害怕坦诚相对

曾经有位知心朋友“痛骂”了我一顿
她说, " 你身边的好朋友多的是...只是你自己没有打开心房...不是你的朋友不愿把耳朵借给你，而是你从不把烦恼诉说给身边的朋友听! 哪又有谁会知道你的心情糟透了呢! 不要只和我分享你的欢乐，但是也可以大方的发泄你的悲伤...逞强不是一个好的方法! "

糟糕啦... 泪怎么正在流啊.... 真没用啊 ....

再次读回她所寄出的短讯 我的心也跟着流泪了
坦白说 这已不是第一次这样地流泪了
一个人静静的坐在这宁静的夜晚
我的泪 说不上为什么
没有经过我的点头同意
它就这样不听使唤的流下了

其实我讨厌哭 我更想摆脱爱哭鬼这个绰号
但我还是得承认我是个爱哭鬼
什么时候的我才能不再哭呢 我也想知道啊...


世界上那麼多人 只有我 一个人能拯救自己的快乐 不要也不可以再哭了


我想 或许 有那么一天 我真的该停止这部落格了
或许 是时候把一切真心话抛到另一个没有熟人的部落去
或许 那样我会更快乐点吧
最起码 我不会像这样犹疑着是否该在这儿分享我的心事

你说， 这是不是最好的办法呢？！

哈，没错，再开另一个新的部落格吧！ ^^

好了, 不管怎样还是得逼自己睡, 等下还要上课呢.... 晚安!!! @.@