DecisioN MakinG

Life is full of decisions and sometimes it's hard to choose for the right one...you'll be in a dilemma when come across decision making...you can't figure out which should you choose and which is the best among the all... Once you make a choice then it'll be part of your life... I've came across many and many times of decision making...Each time, I told myself to think wisely and deeply as the choice I choosed may bring the effect in the future... However, I still make the wrong decision everytime... I used to blame myself for choosing the wrong path...Why not I choose the other choices rather than what I had choosed?! Why not I think of the choices once and once again?! That's me.......I know nothing is perfect, I know everything has passed and there's no way to regret, but I still felt guilty of it... Why can't I make a RIGHT decision?!

Few weeks ago, one of my bro asking me the decision making of his further studies after SPM.... he has no ideas on what to do and asking me for the opinions and also the reasons I choosed my course right now.... well, that's the question I hate the most to answer.... Frankly, being an optician isn't really my ambition and since young I hav never ever thought/dreamt to b an optician in the future... OPTICIAN, it isn't my dream... and until now I still not cleared of the reasons I choosed it... and I was kinda regretted for joining this course... however, the course is going to end by this year so there's no way for me to regret or changing into other course....therefore, what can I do now is just continue it, pass the papers (hopefully) and look for the job after I graduated... besides of that, my bro also asking me a question which always surrounded on my mind.... " jie, r u going to further your studies in overseas after this year? ".... yeah, that's the question...and I haven't make up my mind yet... I was so envy of those who can further his/her studies in overseas and each time, I hope I'm NOT the one sending friends off in KLIA and watching them take down the escalator heading towards the plane....I hope I'm the one on the plane!!! That's what I hoped for but can it be true in one day?! I don't know and it's most probably--- NOT!!!!

sigh...FUTURE... how will it be? is dat a bright future? or...??? As the time flies, I'm getting worried about my future... Who am I when I reached the age of 30,40 and 50?!?! What can I be in the future except working in an optical shop?!?! The more I think of those questions, the more I feel guilty and regret on what I had choosed....sigh....

what can I say here to my bro is... pls think wisely before you make any decision... dont follow what your friends choosed, that's your future and YOU'RE the only one who can decide it.... yea, the future is in your hands!!! And....don't follow my step, no more regret... no more turning back when it's too late.... - all the best to you... ^^ and me too.....